I am going insane…
November 12th, 2008 Chris Posted in General | 2 Comments »
OK – I know I have been super delinquent. The fact is I am going insane.
I have officially max’ed out and it was stupid. And I think there is a lesson here.
When I first went to work with Colleen, I suffered from ego-interruptus. That is, the small amount of respect and industry recognition I had obtained as the CTO was a bit addictive. Nothing like telling the story over drinks about briefing Congress or pioneering a new high-growth market. It’s a long way to writing copy and working on a web page design.
So, I went to take on additional challenges that would feed my ego. First, I got a teaching gig at our local University’s MBA program. Then I joined a colleague in doing Product Management training at a large technology. What was I thinking!?!
And it’s not like there was nothing to do with our micro-business. I’ve got things back from last December I’ve not done yet.
But now, I sit here – working from 6am to 11pm each day and doing nothing as well as I’d like. And worst of all, I’m hurting the business that allows us to have a great lifestyle and is going to help us retire.
It must stop. After my current commitments, I am going to re-focus on the one business that’s most critical to us. And if my ego suffers once and a while… in the words of a good friend of mine (and a former post), I’ll have to “suck it up, princess.”
C.
November 15th, 2008 at 1:53 pm
I too have been lured back to corporate partially by the need to feed my ego. I can feel the cuffs tightening but the pain so far has been tolerable. I know once my threshold for pain is crossed I will once again say “screw my ego” re-read Tolle’s ‘A New Earth’ and get back to where I belong. In the meantime I too will have to “suck it up princess.”
December 18th, 2008 at 7:12 am
[...] The good news? Over the last year we’ve leaned into (aka invested) in additional lines of income. Coaching, events, web class are areas that we put some sales and marketing behind. Heck – even I got off my ass and did some training (however, that was a mistake, ad passim). [...]